never look back, never look down
Sunday, April 23, 2006
life
why am i being tortured by it and why am i putting hopes on it and at the end of the day i was utterly destroyed and sometimes it has also affected my studies. why am i doing it and i got frustrated at the end of the day? i was enlightened while i was on my way home, i was thinking how to get out of this and my mind was in peace at that time. no doubt that i was better than last time and after all, things changed much better then.
actually i dont wish to talk about playing but it was great so i think why not share it. e first time i played for combined cgm, had the urge to play it even more better. had good comments from yieling which i was greatly encouraged. i was thinking how could i play in front of so many people and playing God's song and i am still playing for cgm. not to mention that i really improved tremendously and its an miracle. note the word miracle. haha. can you imagine a person that is not music-inclined and learning an music instrument and using that to serve Him. who can you give thanks but Him? we are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; perecuted, but not forsaken, stuck down, but not destroyed. thank you.
three more weeks to mid-year which im determined to do it well. mind over matters darren.
actually i dont wish to talk about playing but it was great so i think why not share it. e first time i played for combined cgm, had the urge to play it even more better. had good comments from yieling which i was greatly encouraged. i was thinking how could i play in front of so many people and playing God's song and i am still playing for cgm. not to mention that i really improved tremendously and its an miracle. note the word miracle. haha. can you imagine a person that is not music-inclined and learning an music instrument and using that to serve Him. who can you give thanks but Him? we are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; perecuted, but not forsaken, stuck down, but not destroyed. thank you.
three more weeks to mid-year which im determined to do it well. mind over matters darren.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
what are friends for
the meaning of the word friend
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trust
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comarde
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronize a group, cause, a movement: friends of the clean environment
friend for Geek; philos which means i love.
i was looking at what are the friends that i always i associate with, is it the person whom they always see every week or everyday and just say hi to you only or is the person whom can sense that you are not doing well and immediately ask you what has happened without you telling them.
i have missed my training for close to one month, time for me to resume it back before my muscles go flappy. that is diguesting.
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trust
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comarde
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronize a group, cause, a movement: friends of the clean environment
friend for Geek; philos which means i love.
i was looking at what are the friends that i always i associate with, is it the person whom they always see every week or everyday and just say hi to you only or is the person whom can sense that you are not doing well and immediately ask you what has happened without you telling them.
i have missed my training for close to one month, time for me to resume it back before my muscles go flappy. that is diguesting.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
heaven and hades
today is good friday which means its public holiday. im looking forward for the past week for this day where i can sleep without that irriating familiar alarm that wake me up everyday. hardly breathe nowadays in school, wish that i could have more time each day. i feel so sad that i couldnt spend more time w my grandma and at home with my mum.
had bible studies on wednesday, that lesson literally blow my mind away. the resurrection of the dead.
interesting eh. it bought me to mind that my family and friends have not been saved yet. and that lesson says that those who are unsaved and are not dead yet, they will live during the second Jesus's coming and He regins one thousand years and this might be e last chance that do they wanted to accept Jesus. and Christ will come for the overthrow of the anti-christ and of course Satan, that's one of e reason why He comes back.
and another thing i was quite amazed was the changes that the dead body was resurrected and there are five changes to the new body which is the new body will be incorruptible, the new body will be immortal, e new body will a body of beauty and glory. can you imagine when Jesus has resurrected and he's in His new body who can appear immediately or anytime that he wants and he can walking between heaven and earth. there's more of it, this is just e introduction of e lesson.
had bible studies on wednesday, that lesson literally blow my mind away. the resurrection of the dead.
interesting eh. it bought me to mind that my family and friends have not been saved yet. and that lesson says that those who are unsaved and are not dead yet, they will live during the second Jesus's coming and He regins one thousand years and this might be e last chance that do they wanted to accept Jesus. and Christ will come for the overthrow of the anti-christ and of course Satan, that's one of e reason why He comes back.
and another thing i was quite amazed was the changes that the dead body was resurrected and there are five changes to the new body which is the new body will be incorruptible, the new body will be immortal, e new body will a body of beauty and glory. can you imagine when Jesus has resurrected and he's in His new body who can appear immediately or anytime that he wants and he can walking between heaven and earth. there's more of it, this is just e introduction of e lesson.
Monday, April 10, 2006
praise and worship
looking back at the photos from pas years, everybody's appearances has changed and i was rather amazed by it and even i have changed also.
you know what, i was so careless yesterday that i left my guitar in the back of the car booth when i left the cab. what a muddlehead i am. thank God i able to get it back on that day. experiencing a kinda feeling that was so good, wordless i could say. extraordinary blessings and grace from Him. i cant deny that he's not faithful and there for me but the truth is this you have to trust Him and fear and doubts are always from the devil which sometimes i was wondering does him have any new tricks. but again, i have learnt my lesson and be careful of course.
looking back at the photos from pas years, everybody's appearances has changed and i was rather amazed by it and even i have changed also.you know what, i was so careless yesterday that i left my guitar in the back of the car booth when i left the cab. what a muddlehead i am. thank God i able to get it back on that day. experiencing a kinda feeling that was so good, wordless i could say. extraordinary blessings and grace from Him. i cant deny that he's not faithful and there for me but the truth is this you have to trust Him and fear and doubts are always from the devil which sometimes i was wondering does him have any new tricks. but again, i have learnt my lesson and be careful of course.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
blessed darren
it's been donkey years im writing my entry. wow. time seems passes so fast that i was so afraid. its getting nearer to o level that somtimes i feel that its tomorrow. but im enjoying myself in school although there are free flow of homework and stress that i couldnt take it. i realized that im not stupid afterall, the concentration just need to be there. although it's just the foundations of maths, i've mastered three chapters in three hours. slow but steady.
home remains the same, spending even lesser time at home, believing situation will change for close ones not to mention they will be saved soon. im hoping and determined to go to the next level of breakthrough, not being selfish about myself, praying for my grandparents and my old aunt to be healthy everytime i prayed. its really amazing that you offering your treasure to God's hands and sometimes you're lending to Him that beyond your expectations. and it's so amazing how He returned you back and your storehouse are filled that it cant even contain anymore, i can said that im experiencing it right now and felt so scary that it is happening to me.
i was quite held back when somebody told me that i was appeard "dao" maybe sometimes my face expressions show it all but have to agree it with her that i must improve it. i was thinking of these words when i heard this song, dont think you know his name, u know everything about him. how much people know about me and interested to know about me?
home remains the same, spending even lesser time at home, believing situation will change for close ones not to mention they will be saved soon. im hoping and determined to go to the next level of breakthrough, not being selfish about myself, praying for my grandparents and my old aunt to be healthy everytime i prayed. its really amazing that you offering your treasure to God's hands and sometimes you're lending to Him that beyond your expectations. and it's so amazing how He returned you back and your storehouse are filled that it cant even contain anymore, i can said that im experiencing it right now and felt so scary that it is happening to me.
i was quite held back when somebody told me that i was appeard "dao" maybe sometimes my face expressions show it all but have to agree it with her that i must improve it. i was thinking of these words when i heard this song, dont think you know his name, u know everything about him. how much people know about me and interested to know about me?
