never look back, never look down
farewell.
hey. it's coming to the end of year 2004, time flies real fast and it's just like a blink of an eye. busy writing cards for friends and was on the phone with my friend and she doesn't appreciate my card? haha. u should understand my situation.
this year is really a struggle for me in school and at home. struggle in school is i have choosen a wrong course and did not have the means to study in private and i can understand jeremy's FEELINGS. haha. a kinda feeling that u cant get into a school that u like and was posted to somewhere that you like. that was a struggle and thank God i have made it.
i was miraculous saved! hah. slowly i really see His grace and presence despite family and close friends persecution. afterall, i stand all. and now my mama went for the altar call that day, He is so real and really touches me and my mama. if not for Him, i would be rotting at home all day and go clubbing?
words cant expressed that i have made a batch of believers and close friends. changes me totally and my character. u cant imagine who is darren neo in the past and u wouldnt wants to mix around with him.
and now, it's just a few days to the year 2005, i'm looking so forward to it positively and spiritual strong. hope that my plans is just for Him and will become true. growing more in the lord, united in the cellgroup and mostly important, praise Him in all circumstances!
and that one person i wanna thank with the bottom of my heart. thanks janice da jie. if wouldn't be you, i cant imagine who i am now. a person who is serving fervently Him and helping me all this while. just wanna say a BIG THANK YOU! can u hear it? put your ear near the screen, THANK YOU!
sweet past.
i went to jinnie's house again! u must wondering why i keep going to his house? his parents went overseas so we can play like no one. surfing and playing, fliming the whole night, cant beleive we flim until seven in the morning. the production is called, "stars ball". right steve? copy from stars war movie. this is the best movie that we ever make so far and the last one in 2004. think from these staying, W260 brothers has bonded even more. Praise the Lord. really spend these holiday so fruitful everyday except i'm broke otherwise i'll be more fruitful. haha.
okay! my mama has come for the christmas indoor stadium, she has gone for the altar call, dont know she has really invite Him not.. cant believe that it's end of the year, time flies.was thinking of the past.
white christmas.
yesterday cell christmas gathering was cool. 2004 is coming to an end, it happened just like yesterday. had lots of fun and presents were exchanged to each other, i got a von dutch by yun kiat. i was surprised that i got a cap but not a top or something. thanks yun kiat. and it was really fruitful that it's the first time that i ate so full in a gathering. haha. that normally food was not enough, everything was cool especially the curry. *drooling.
second day of work wasn't really that tiring under section I/C, her name is jesslyn, younger than me by one year. made some new friends in that section so time really passes quite fast that day. hopefully, i will not under the indian guy's hands. what mingxuan says was quite true to me that working in F & B business was tedious and need to see other's people faces but at the end of the day, u just have to tahan and you get the job pay at the end of the month. always know that He is with me all the time when i'm working. you will reap what you sow.
home sweet home.
back from jinnie's condo. praise e Lord, steve is speaking tongues now. my efforts didnt gone to waste, can really feel that e Holy Spirit has touches him and that is e second time i'm praying for people. i shall work hard towards to it. in two months time.
okay! finally, i'm working from all those waiting and whining. e job was terrible man, it suck my energy and tiredness. here comes the whining. haha. and i can earn twenty bucks per day, better than nothing. and got this idot indian guy who thinks he is the boy in that cafe, bossing me around to carry stuff and was arousing his authority. always give me that "orang-tuan got pinched by its nipple face." see his face. supposed to be a happy day has become a sad day. but work is facing stress and presure. have to earn money, what to do.
the hairstylist..
teacher yvonne is back! went out to fellowship with her yesterday. listening her story in australia, working illegally down but the pay is very good. 1.2k per week, that's cool. but it's a endurance job, i dont mind. hah. getting away from city and go to countryside and work, no stress. that's my dream.
Into your hand
i commit again
all i am, for you, Lord
you hold in my world in the palm of your hand
and i'm yours, forever.
Jesus, i beleive in you
Jesus, i belong to you
you're the reson that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am
i'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
i'll trust in you
and i will live
in all of your ways
and promises, forever
i will worship, i will worship you
i will worship, i will worship you
others can, i can't.
e camp was over, everyone were talking about how good it is. but seriously, it was a very meaningful and fun camp, thank God, i went to e camp. i had learnt spiritual stuff from Pst. Aries and Wenling's preaching. truly, it had really blessed me what i really want for my life and for Him.
christmas is coming and yet i haven't start work. so many things to buy for my close friends and my self! haha. so vein me. HOPEFULLY, i can start work soon..
synergy.
i'm going to camp tomorrow, will be back by wednesday. dont have the mood for camping. haha. so many stuff to pack and i have to bring six sets of clothes?! sigh. will get scolded by my mama that she have to wash so many clothes. i'm worried my mama is left alone at home, one sis at my aunt's house, will be back by thursday, the other one is working until then ten something. sigh. myabe ask my sis to come back earlier.
the seduction of lawlessness.
a two week seimnar by Pst. Kong and Rob Thompson of teachings has really increases my walk with Him, to pursues Him more and more even there are set downs and the devil coming to destroy you ahead of your journey. Rob Thompson has given us seven points, i chose the third one. No man can be defined by his beliefs, but by the quality of his actions. the Bible says that, " But someone will say, " You have faith, and i have works." Show me your faith without works adn i will show you my faith by my works. one not only just speak, must be a doer to show it. yieling given me Bible studies because mingxuan was overseas on last saturday. it was so good even though i was dead tired. maybe i ask yieling to give me BS from now on? haha. dont misunderstood me mingxuan k? you know what i mean ya? it was discipleship, chapter four. she was telling me how discipleship can make a christian grow up in their lifestyles and knowing their mistake and wont do it again.i'm willing to be discipled by her and i can become strong in the Lord under help and encouragement and agreed that true discipleship happens on-the-job, ona day-to-day basis, not sitting in a classroom and teach you. i'm surprised that Jesus's disciples were not educated and learned. pretty impressed what Peter had done on the cross for Him, he was crucified upside down on a cross that he says that he is not worthy to be nailed on the cross as Jeus. the nail below that suppose to be nailed on the legs but nailed on his head? eeeeeeee. all those blood and brain's juice oozing out. and Peter that kinda of changing directions and opinions and he done something for Him on the cross.
okay. back to my life. haha. jinnie is back. that means i'll be going out with him for gym and seeing him more often. staying over at his house next week. jinnie's mama is great. she actually drive me home from yew tee? i felt bad that day. the incredibles was so incredible. u should watch it! i like tha part that dash and his sister were fighting and dash use his super power to smack his sister's head, doing that afew times dashing. it remind me of the old times with my second sister when we were fighting. i will run to catch her as i was faster, beating her and ran away. haha. and she cried. and both of my sister's ultimate weapon was to shout mummy. hahs. but times flies, both of us grew up and now is to debate with her. no mummy.
We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
