never look back, never look down
Glory to my Heavenly Father.
nothing can expressed me right now, i really want to give a big victorious shout. hahs. i had passed my BM test this evening, although it's just a minimum requirement to become a lifeguard. even u had an encounter with the word "trouble", u just seek Him, and u will see the miracle. whoohoo. He really give me a big hand on the back to make me pass. the whole thing normally around four hours and i ended the test less than half an hour. who did it? He. there were no theory test after practical and yet i can pass. who did it? He. each section, i passed with his graceful help. hey! besides that, u have to work hard and do your homework. you just have to leave the rest to Him. whoohoo. no one had finish that fast and it's really a miracle. and now darren can work as a part time lifeguard.
it really came at a right time. i was real broke these few weeks and i cant buy my watch for the time being. and now He offer me a job at the doorstep. Praise the Lord! and i no need to hunt jobs like no one, filling those stupid winded form and they didnt hire you in the end. this thursday is my final exam, so pathethic. everybody were enjoying their holiday and i have to mug. but enjoyment and going out is waiting for me in front. He had do it for you once, He will do it for you again. why not? mug mug mug mug.
Pass
Should I laugh?
Should I cry?
Should I wave it all by?
Or make a decision and walk?
Should I scream?
Should I sing?
Should I ignore the ring?
Or tighten my lips, just refusing to talk?
Should I hope?
Should I care?
Should I howl with despair?
Or smile and retreat with good grace?
Should I go?
Should I fight?
Should I keep to the right?
Or follow the light that I see on your face?
pushing off the limits.
i was fasting today yet i went swimming for the whole afternoon, crazy huh. clock was ticking so slow as i was watching my handphone now and
then. at last, the big time has passed, i went to eat black pepper teriyaki rice that was introduced by my friend and mac spicy meal later on. can tell you, i was so full. hahah. people from other countries were dying of hungry and me right now i was the first person to stuff to death. *nod head. i'm glad that i perservence to the end, without Him, it's impossible.
i havent finish my phase tests in school, it had to be done by next week. and the wonderful part is i dont know how to do! i cant wait for the holiday to come, and say bye to the damn school. my computer is getting worse and worse, think the hacker has hacked into my computer, i was fighting the mouse cursor with the stupid hacker. i strolled up, he strolled down. what's the matter with you? my computer doesn't have anything for you hack boy. finally, i had taken the quiz test, so stressed and scared that i will flunked. but He did not give me the spirit of fear, hope that i'll get full marks.
The Heavenly Man.
school is gonna be hectic these few weeks, practical has to be done by holidays. five projects and two phase tests, and the best is i dont even know how to do. hahs. just pray i'll be able to hold on till holidays. 26 of nov is indenpedence day for me. had lunch with lao da this afternoon, told her that i'm able to serve for Him on sundays. hahs. think it's the grace of God, i was watching a show about helping out elderly on channel 8 and the show was really inspired people to care and help those elderly. can see that my mama is touched and finally i popped out the question of helping out at church, nagging and questions were asked why i want to help out. my mama is that sort of person whose face gives the answer. no frowning and silence means consent.
the fear has come. my previous coach, mr tan has came back from his operation recovery to give training. he given my friend a call that why we didnt turned up for training, he did not told him that we have change to another coach and he had already knew about it. had this kinda feeling that i dont like that i change coaches thing. friends from the classes asked me why i din turned up and told them i dont want to learn. kinda of missing them, the big noisy group that we swim thick and thin together and now i was training alone with my partner. human is like that, they want the fastest way to achieve the results they want.
okay. after eating lunch with lao da, went to sengkang to give some stuff to mingxuan, thought of leaving after handed the stuff to him and i stayed till night. hahs. but it was productive. learn something new today, was reading heavenly man. can tell you, that book is worth of spending your time reading. he's one man that i respect. cant believe that he had fasted for 74 days and tortures were being used on him. a electric baton was put into your mouth? and those idot guards were urining at you? there are lots of torture were being used on him and he was reduced to bones and have not die. it really bring me another level of faith and believe as you believe in Him, u can do all things through Christ to strengthen you.
christmas is coming and my sis's birthday is coming too. that means i need MONEY. hahs. given my application form to LIFE bookshop, hope that they will accept me. heard that there is interview before you are accepted. a friend of mine had failed at the hands of the interviewer. dont care who the heck are you, just give me the job. if i get the job, it's really the grace from above, gonna bless your people as You have blessed me so many things for the past year. visualization. rehearse your miracle. hahah.
We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9
